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Words & music by Kato Hideki
© & ℗ Kato Hideki (Open Circuit Music / BMI) 2019
www.katohideki.com
www.plasticspoon.net

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I was neglected the minute I was born
Mom and dad were wasted, drinking all day
Born in a small town, Crescent, Oklahoma
An easy target because I was gay

Am I really a boy? I'm so scared
Am I really a girl? I'm so confused

Dad got violent, shooting up the house
My mom tried to save me, and tried to kill herself
Drifting from town to town, sleeping in a truck
I joined the army so desperate to be someone else

I'm really a boy, I'm a soldier
I'm really a girl, I'm so confused

I was a big mess but deployed to the Iraq war
as an analyst, reviewing many secret files
I was troubled by the truth I didn't know
That's when I knew I had to tell the world

I'm really a girl, not a soldier
I'm really a girl, I have to tell you the truth

I need to be the someone I always wanted to be
I want to be my real self, to be in my skin
I need to be somebody else I've never had a chance before
I want to be my real self, to live in my skin

credits

from Plastic Spoon - Singles in Mono (2020), track released April 25, 2020
Produced, recorded, mixed in mono & mastered by Kato Hideki

Musicians:
Kato Hideki: bass, hihat, castanet, glockenspiel, stings, shaker & snare
Karen Mantler: vocal & chromatic harmonica
Doug Wieselman: rhythm guitar & bass clarinet
Shahzad Ismailey: drums

Cover Art & shadow Box by Kato Hideki

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Kato Hideki Brooklyn, New York

Kato Hideki is a Japanese multi-instrumentalist, composer & producer. His music is truly diverse with a wide range of forms and sounds. His other titles are released on Tzadik, Joyful Noise Recordings, Improvised Music from Japan, Presquile records & Virgin UK
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